我还没完全打开心房，
准备接收你的一切时，
请不要这样闯进
我的心里
我的世界里。
过后，
却擅自离开了。。。
请不要这样！！
当
我已能接收你的一切时，
请不要
说要离开
就离开。。。
因为
一个人在一个世界
是很寂寞
很孤独的。
需要有你的陪伴
有你在身边。。。
2009年10月30日星期五
我们到底怎么了。。。
29/10/2009 Thursday
Today,i cried...哭了。不懂为什么，整个人快崩溃了。泪水，不停地往眼角流下来。我告诉自己不要哭。但除了哭来发泄，我就不懂改怎么办。他，对一些事很生气也很不爽。我问他到底发生什么事，他竟说：“这些事你需要知道吗？！”我顿时觉得，原来他心里就好像没有我的存在，他都好像没把我当成是他的女友。。。顿时觉得，我好像很没用，对吧？！他发生事情，我却不会给他安慰，也不懂要怎么办。。。我想问他，他到底有没有顾虑过我的感受？！我在他心目中到底是什么？？什么也不是？在他心里，篮球也比较重要，是不是？
也许我担心的是多余的。。。一切都是我想太多，却没有人能明白为什么，包括他也是。。。为什么我要喜欢他？？为什么我要心软？？难道要狠狠地跟他提出分手吗？！这可能是“长痛不如短痛”吗？这一切的决定，因为他而不断地在改变。最后，会是放弃还是坚持呢？这都要看他对我的态度。。。我们的感情都不是很稳定。。。好像一直都在悬崖边缘那里，不断地在那里徘徊。。。
Today,i cried...哭了。不懂为什么，整个人快崩溃了。泪水，不停地往眼角流下来。我告诉自己不要哭。但除了哭来发泄，我就不懂改怎么办。他，对一些事很生气也很不爽。我问他到底发生什么事，他竟说：“这些事你需要知道吗？！”我顿时觉得，原来他心里就好像没有我的存在，他都好像没把我当成是他的女友。。。顿时觉得，我好像很没用，对吧？！他发生事情，我却不会给他安慰，也不懂要怎么办。。。我想问他，他到底有没有顾虑过我的感受？！我在他心目中到底是什么？？什么也不是？在他心里，篮球也比较重要，是不是？
也许我担心的是多余的。。。一切都是我想太多，却没有人能明白为什么，包括他也是。。。为什么我要喜欢他？？为什么我要心软？？难道要狠狠地跟他提出分手吗？！这可能是“长痛不如短痛”吗？这一切的决定，因为他而不断地在改变。最后，会是放弃还是坚持呢？这都要看他对我的态度。。。我们的感情都不是很稳定。。。好像一直都在悬崖边缘那里，不断地在那里徘徊。。。
2009年10月27日星期二
嗯...就接下去说吧~雪很多次都试着坚持她的决定...直到有一天,她突然发现她的坚持好像不该坚持的.一切的开始好像是个错误...但雪现在放不下他了。不能忍受的,她告诉自己也要忍受,因为耀能为什么她不能...想了很多,内心也挣扎了很多次,但却没勇气放下,没勇气放弃这段感情...到了今天(27/10/09)她突然觉得他是在乎她的,他却不懂要怎样表达。原来...今天知道,不会太迟吧??她只希望他会对她好些...不过,她也觉得自己得改一改了。毕竟她觉得自己对他还不够好，他对她酱也够了。。。嗯...谁不希望自己的男友对自己好点啊？！也许她真的想太多了...就是想太多了...自己的疑心太重了吧？！可能...她还是没有那个信心,那个勇气...也许她觉得男生或男人的话是不能信的~因为大都是骗人的吧？！有时她觉得，他说的有些未必办得到。。。有谁是完美的？没有，对吧？？但说过的话，给的承诺应该可以办到吧？！他说这是他的原则。。。
2009年10月9日星期五
恩~今天我有总感触...就拿故事来说吧~
童家耀,给人家的印象的比较花心的...伊雪圻,是个单纯的女孩...就称他们为'耀'和'雪'吧~耀和雪...是不认识对方的.只是檫肩而过的陌生人...耀是通过朋友认识的...雪也是...也许是缘分吧~ 身边的人说耀在追求雪...但雪根本不把它当一回事...只觉得他们只是在开玩笑...结果,耀对雪说了他的感觉...雪就拒绝了...她都不喜欢他...而且,认识也不久啊~
但到了有一天,雪接受了耀...耀给了雪承诺...也许他们不知道,许下的承诺办不到,只会给双方带来伤害...耀很爱雪...他能忍受雪的性格和脾气,也...因为这样,雪觉得很幸福,也尽量把那些不好的都改掉...然而..不少事情让他们吵起来...但迁就的都是耀吧...他们经历了很多事...雪想放弃他们之间的感情...但,耀放不下...他为雪牺牲的比雪为他牺牲的多...他们在一起只是短短的一个月多...但其实发生的事就好像半年一样...耀对雪不会很坏...他们会到永远吗??他们的爱情是否能经得起更多的考验??一切...只有到最后一秒,才知道...有个事实是到现在是不会改的:就是耀很爱雪;而雪也慢慢地喜欢上耀了....
但...双方的家长好像反对两人...也许是雪想太多了吧...但耀不想和雪分开...难道,真的反对也要继续在一起吗?!这事很难决定...就看命运的安排...
童家耀,给人家的印象的比较花心的...伊雪圻,是个单纯的女孩...就称他们为'耀'和'雪'吧~耀和雪...是不认识对方的.只是檫肩而过的陌生人...耀是通过朋友认识的...雪也是...也许是缘分吧~ 身边的人说耀在追求雪...但雪根本不把它当一回事...只觉得他们只是在开玩笑...结果,耀对雪说了他的感觉...雪就拒绝了...她都不喜欢他...而且,认识也不久啊~
但到了有一天,雪接受了耀...耀给了雪承诺...也许他们不知道,许下的承诺办不到,只会给双方带来伤害...耀很爱雪...他能忍受雪的性格和脾气,也...因为这样,雪觉得很幸福,也尽量把那些不好的都改掉...然而..不少事情让他们吵起来...但迁就的都是耀吧...他们经历了很多事...雪想放弃他们之间的感情...但,耀放不下...他为雪牺牲的比雪为他牺牲的多...他们在一起只是短短的一个月多...但其实发生的事就好像半年一样...耀对雪不会很坏...他们会到永远吗??他们的爱情是否能经得起更多的考验??一切...只有到最后一秒,才知道...有个事实是到现在是不会改的:就是耀很爱雪;而雪也慢慢地喜欢上耀了....
但...双方的家长好像反对两人...也许是雪想太多了吧...但耀不想和雪分开...难道,真的反对也要继续在一起吗?!这事很难决定...就看命运的安排...
07/10/2009
Today exam...major subject-BM.Tomorrow is English n Science...Adrienna get send message to me...We talk many...just like before~So happy...said about TakWai,some about Oliv3r...She be my 'husband'^^I want be ahli active with Adrienna^^so fun can talk with her...although she's a bit high...but i just like her...
Adrienna okay jor...I'm very happy...Yay~Nothing to say...Just BM dk cn gt good result or not...
Jiayoujiayou...GamBat3.
Today exam...major subject-BM.Tomorrow is English n Science...Adrienna get send message to me...We talk many...just like before~So happy...said about TakWai,some about Oliv3r...She be my 'husband'^^I want be ahli active with Adrienna^^so fun can talk with her...although she's a bit high...but i just like her...
Adrienna okay jor...I'm very happy...Yay~Nothing to say...Just BM dk cn gt good result or not...
Jiayoujiayou...GamBat3.
2009年10月2日星期五
A happy day!?
Haha...Today morning feel so sad...no mood for the day...but study must still going on...
Today, zheng lin teach me Science...a bit boring but it's okay~i afraid i will 'xiasui' him lo...my recent science,don't why so worst...Oh My God...
After school,my mood not so good...so i go find ChieHarn that just arrive...suddenly feel happy...
Oliv3r just behind me.He took my file and saw the things that i had wrote...After talked with ChieHarn...then go to No.2 door...Oliv3r said many things...but i didn't want to hear...
Futhermore,i i go my bus,he still follow me...After that,i saw Inna...she so happy^^my mood become better...Suddenly feel all things had solved...feel relax~
Tak wai also very high today...all mood so good~then i also feel happy...He holded my hand...tak wai very funny...He pretend to kiss Jessy but just act only~Tak Wai also 'play' with me.He pretend want hug me,kiss me in front of Oliv3r...i think Oliv3r very mind ba...sorry...
Oliv3r said that he won't talk about ShiYun...He really does it...But i still a bit not like his talk style...especially算了...like not syok...
i feel Oliv3r treat me not bad la...At least he can tolerate with my temperament...My koh said that,don't scold him la...he can tolerate with you,you also can,right?you two must tolerate to each other...If not,you two just will hurted...
I hope he will treat me better lo...then i just can trust him...I feel that i more believe him than before...
PMR,Gambate yo!!
Today, zheng lin teach me Science...a bit boring but it's okay~i afraid i will 'xiasui' him lo...my recent science,don't why so worst...Oh My God...
After school,my mood not so good...so i go find ChieHarn that just arrive...suddenly feel happy...
Oliv3r just behind me.He took my file and saw the things that i had wrote...After talked with ChieHarn...then go to No.2 door...Oliv3r said many things...but i didn't want to hear...
Futhermore,i i go my bus,he still follow me...After that,i saw Inna...she so happy^^my mood become better...Suddenly feel all things had solved...feel relax~
Tak wai also very high today...all mood so good~then i also feel happy...He holded my hand...tak wai very funny...He pretend to kiss Jessy but just act only~Tak Wai also 'play' with me.He pretend want hug me,kiss me in front of Oliv3r...i think Oliv3r very mind ba...sorry...
Oliv3r said that he won't talk about ShiYun...He really does it...But i still a bit not like his talk style...especially算了...like not syok...
i feel Oliv3r treat me not bad la...At least he can tolerate with my temperament...My koh said that,don't scold him la...he can tolerate with you,you also can,right?you two must tolerate to each other...If not,you two just will hurted...
I hope he will treat me better lo...then i just can trust him...I feel that i more believe him than before...
PMR,Gambate yo!!
Everything-have idea 2 solve it...
Recently happen many things...a bit tired;a bit happy;also get a bit sad...
PMR is around the corner...i afraid that i can't do well...scare will panic or anxious...so pr33sure~
Why can't i be relax??Hehe...i got a big 'brother' lo...i think he will better than my brother la...Maybe we got same family problem...know how tired live at there....it just a HOTEL ba~i think...gonna move out when reach age that can live alone...
All FAKE....they more love the yongest or younger...At school better(i think)
After PMR...free lo...but Form4 not as easy as Form 3 le...got biology,chemistry,physical... ...
Gonna be happy...just like my big brother said so....or 'close my eye-stop thinking;stop gasping,just let my mind be relax...Everything will be OKAY!!'
PMR is around the corner...i afraid that i can't do well...scare will panic or anxious...so pr33sure~
Why can't i be relax??Hehe...i got a big 'brother' lo...i think he will better than my brother la...Maybe we got same family problem...know how tired live at there....it just a HOTEL ba~i think...gonna move out when reach age that can live alone...
All FAKE....they more love the yongest or younger...At school better(i think)
After PMR...free lo...but Form4 not as easy as Form 3 le...got biology,chemistry,physical... ...
Gonna be happy...just like my big brother said so....or 'close my eye-stop thinking;stop gasping,just let my mind be relax...Everything will be OKAY!!'
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